you got me goin' crazy

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 16:44:11 GMT

new lj... _hotsexx_

everyone add me there

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 16:25:31 GMT

ok im starting not to want to update this journal its pointless
so uum vote if you want me to delete it or not

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 13:01:08 GMT

I'm so dead on the inside
i don't even know.
help? please.

Fri, 18 Jun 2004 02:30:42 GMT

i feeel empty still even more then last time i said that... =/

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 10:06:56 GMT

why the fuck do i fucking bother. for the past 6 months why have i fucking bothered... its okay. i know when i'm not fucking needed so just go back to your boyfriend. i dont care anymore. you obviously don't need me in anyway so have a nice fucking life.

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 02:10:18 GMT

wow you know what, fuck all of you. that's all

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 14:23:49 GMT

.. this is just fanfuckingtastic i don't think this year could get any fucking worse... whatever, i don't know i don't want to know i want to cry and die right now okay. gona go bye bye

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 10:31:04 GMT

well, idon't know. work was good i guess... as good as it can be. i really don't think it could be better in a sense. its work you know? ummmmmm... today is my art final and i have to return some books but i don't know.. i have to take my history and psych finals still and i duno what to do bc i really don't want to stay after too long i feel so fucking icky
i don't like it. i couldn't really sleep last night it was way too hot for 6:30 am and yeah im done compaining again sorry. later

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 02:05:34 GMT

first day of work; wow
my minds going nuts; like usual
i want to shoot myself; hehe
does that not surprise you; any of you
probably; not
anyways; i don't know
why; i am typing
like; this
but i am weird okay i'm done with that
yeah work =s interesting i'm such a spazz someetimes and we have to say all these things "Hi, How are you?, Did you find everything you need?, Do you have a bonus card?, Your savings are ____________, Take Care, Have a good night and thank you for shopping here."
yeahhh,

i'm out
♥
lisa

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 11:29:14 GMT

well, i'm not getting my car yet. :-( and someone from my church found out i smoked great just great fuck it oh well what can they do to me. i don't even care. only one year til i can get away with it anyway.
my body is hurting me, i don't know why... it just hurts.
i'm really tired, and i still have to get two fucking dozens of bagels
god i need a bogie.and i want my fucking car!!!!!!!
and i missed erik's show bc my parents decided to take me out to dinner and not fucking drive me... i'm really sorry erik, please forgive me?

WOW IM A FUCK UP

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 05:18:15 GMT

tonight =s interesting. i was so quiet which is unusual. I wish i knew wtf was up with me... i wish i knew wtf was wrong. i wish i knew if anything would ever go fucking right. well we all know nothing will ever go right for me. bc i'm just a fucking loser like that. whatever i d ont care anymore not really...or i'll just pretend not to and live my fucking life behind a fuckin mask like i have been for the last few years. whatever none of you care anyway.

Sat, 12 Jun 2004 00:34:48 GMT

i feel empty </3 don't know why. oh well. i'm not meant to be with anyone i'm better off alone anyway. i just hope i can make it by myself.

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 03:37:53 GMT

omg pics from prom
i look pretty
i wish i really could look that way all the time
but i suck and i can't :(

whatever. so muchfucked up shit
spent the day with my bros
loved it
i love my bros they rock

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 09:49:48 GMT

yeah fuck everything. end of story

Tue, 08 Jun 2004 10:44:02 GMT

i feel crazy good and really hungry
i duno i thought i was gong to get in trouble but i didnt
i duno what's wrong with me but something definitely is.i don't kow how to explain it
yesterday was great i cut school and just chille drove aroundwith mac and then hung out with robinson before dinner and after dinner that kids great. its supposed to be hot today and im just like wutev finals start thursday andd i get my car this weekend wuddup

ahh peaceeeee

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 20:55:16 GMT

The boy with forever in his eyes.

"Oh boy" I said
"Dear boy" I said
"Why do you never smile?"
"Oh girl"he said
"Dear girl" he said
I haven't in quite a while
"Why not" I said
"Dear God" I said
" Is your heart a shade of black?"
"oh no " he said
"God no" he said
"Im broken and I cant go back"
"Oh my" I said
"God,why?" I said
"A heart so pure as yours"
"Who knows " he said
"Despair grows" he said
"And sometimes grief outpours"
"My love" I said
"Dear love" I said
"Please don't cry anymore"
"But why" he said
"Dear why" he said
"I have nothing to live for"
"Oh me" I said
"Oh my" I said
"I never meant to die"
"Oh me" he said
"Oh my" he said
And breathed in just one sigh
"Oh love" I said
"Dear Love" I said
"Please forget me wont you try"
" I can't" he said
"I wont" he said
"I'll love you til I die"

"I'm yours" I said
"Always yours" I said
"Please don't you cry"
' I love you boy" I said
"I love you boy"
To the boy with forever in his eyes.

props to karen i love her

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 10:18:30 GMT

well the chorus concert went well... and it seemed as if mrs. l was going to cry. then we went to the diner things seemed kind of awkward but it was rewarding none the less i got to spend time with some of my closest friends whom i love very dearly. after that mac wanted me to be a speed devil and drive down the road and race joe that was funny i had fun with it ... and then we picked up chris and dirty food and dropped it back off to them. it was fun. i love driving and i seem to be very responsible so far, i'm loving it. well i must get going school in a bit. love dearly, lisa

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 10:43:46 GMT

so life is at down right now i'm so stressed out like you don't even know...
i cant even explain it..
i wish i could but i really can't.
so please don't bother asking its worthless
i can't tell you what's wrong or what's right

bye

whaddup cheeeesee

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 21:25:41 GMT

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 21:05:07 GMT

sry the last few entries have the same datte i pressed a button so yeah it got fucked up...

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 20:16:41 GMT

I GOT MY FUCKING LICENSE FUCKING ROCKIN OMG I LOVE IT OMG I CAN DRIVE OMGGGG

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 11:24:07 GMT

god i'm so nervous if i fail i'm going to cry literally. sooo fucking nervous.

Sun, 30 May 2004 16:46:38 GMT

you know what
fuck you all you don't give a shit n o one does and why the fuck did it take me so fucking long to fucking realize this fuckkk it

Sat, 29 May 2004 17:55:46 GMT

werd 1988 chevy beretta piece of shit here i come

Sat, 29 May 2004 13:29:49 GMT

wow yeh cried myself to sleep last nite duno why didnt really have a reason i had an amazing day yesterday at the shore with my friends! it was great! i got burnt a little and tan a little rockin'

werd up so we left at about eight thirty got there about ten and then we got there and it was raining but we still walked along the boardwalk it was kind of cool. then it cleared up and we laid out on the beach played frisbee went in the ocean a bit. then we laid out some more then got bored and walked along the board walk and then got dinner and then we walked around a bit more and stood on the beach then we went out for ice cream at this singing place where they make you do funky stuff and they made us do goofy stuff munoz happens to be one sexy man and got pointed at during one song "whatever lola wants, lola gets..." etc. it was great then we went home i was just sitting in the car listening to lauren's love songs some made me cry but i was a good cry not really depressed the songs are just pretty and reminded me of some things in my past. and yeah it was good yota passed out and then we got her home by 11 ish so shes lucky and she's not in trouble or i hope she isn't. lol but she's in pennsylvania right now so wutev. i hope she had fun. ummmmmmmmm... i went home and cried myself to sleep...

werd up later kids... love you